I constantly write about how there are those people in life who make you feel something then they take it all away because you find out or they divulge in those moments when the truth comes out  that there love was a lie and that they were trying to " fake it 'till they made it" that kind of fucked up shit is what I constantly have on my mind and how hard it is to get over them because deep down their lips were the only thing you couldn't  live with out and how even now you sit back and somehow fall into this because you see them and get messages from them every god damned day.

Life chases you around you get over things and then you realize that what you like most about a person is now the reason you hate them. You were willing to tolerate it when you liked them but the bitchy attitude is more than you want, when things are spun and they make you look like the bad guy just because their guilt is to overwhelming for leading you on lie when the words "I love you" came out of their mouth leaving you with horrible feelings of depression and anger and even the thought that suicide might actually be solace for this fucked up world  that you have to endure.

when your so deeply in love with someone and then they can't or are incapable of trying to love you back things fall in on themselves and then you don't know what to do because running away didn't help because the emotions chased after you and you don't know what to do because you were already at the end of the rope where do you find yourself? Is it sitting on the edge of your bed or under the covers crying finding it hard to believe that the sun has not come up and that the darkest part of the night is actually the brightest thing you've seen in a long time? Or do you find yourself wishing that everything would be all right and that the tie that is hung on your support beam looks to be the most painless way out?

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My earliest memories are unsure I remember something then I remember a different thing and well  the sequence of events is  unsure and  well  lots  of  things were suppressed  but  the  happiest is that I'm want to go to school and I take off  with my cousin we got as far as the playground several blocks down before anyone noticed that we were gone, and then I remember that I was pretend mowing (little plastic thing bubbles came out think) the lawn with my grandpa and I got hit with a rock.

 Three dishes I only eat one and that's a peanut butter and jelly and that's all i really live off of.

If I could pick the time period I could live in then it would be  now. The only way that I could live in a previous time was to have no memory of living in a future time thinking entirely that you you know about an existence that does not exist yet so I really could only live in this time.

My favorite memory of my mom is when I was younger it was me, her, and my younger brother we would drive around just to do something (we were very poor in those days and couldn't do much else) and she would talk to us or listen or just say nothing but we were very close and I really envy those days. We were a triange she said we sadly aren't that any more.

Uh, it's two in the morning and I can't help but think of how much a waste of time my life has been I have no acomplishments no nothing I'm in a continuation school for fucks sake where did I go wrong I took so many college prep classes before I knew what college was. So why am I at a school with kids there might be fifth and sixth year seniors but they are children and have nothing of value to give you.I need a new ground for my being before I become to sucked in with these kids.

I am going to have to say that the animal that frightens me the most are people. I don't know why maybe I've got an ill fascination with history and its worst moments . Or maybe because I go to school with so many  of those people who  are scary  that I've just become biased. People are also so unpredictable with the world quite literally at our fingertips so we become bored and use others as our means of enjoyment  for malignant or good reasons so I don't think all people are bad just scary because they are so unpredictable.

Hi As the name tag goes I'm Gabriel. and well today sucked I mean I was forced to eat a burrito I didn't want because my step dad bought it and as his rules go you eat what you order . Seriously like he should have better things to do then watch me eat my vegan burrito. But hey look out world I am on the job market and applying to everything.